FlashbacksThat amazing feeling of pure joyThe clean, fresh air rushing into lungsThe beauty of the nature surroundingFreedom.Walks at midnight in the forestMerely blocks from the apartmentBeing me but so much betterHappierLess stressLess familyFriends-The same way I would at homeLaughing, giggling...But at 8 in the morningNot 2Ungodly amounts of coffeeNapping in the carLaughsPerverted jokesSleeping through the best part- but that made it funnierThousands of picturesFeeling betterStaying in a different place every nightNot knowing the languages around meNever sleeping inNot really wanting toWanderingExploringAmazing thingsBeing completely terrifiedBut amazed by the sightLoving every secondDreading going backMissing my dog to deathNot so much my family....
All The WorldYour chest constrictsThe tears well up"What's wrong?" Echoes from somewhereYou're surrounded-Completely aloneNo one can tellNo one seesThat teardrop fallNo one seems to careYou want to scream;To rant and yellBut breathing hurtsNo one knows;No one willWhat has hit them?"You can tell me!" Says the voiceIt sounds familiar-You shake your headThat feeling there-You know it well,Creeping around, growing strongerDay by dayYou can't fight againThe tears fall freelyNo one sees.No one knows.No one cares.All the world will sit and watchNo one sees what's backstage-The superficial will rule us allThe smile grows-That's all they seeNo one asksNo one wants to know"How deep does it go?""What was that about?""Are you okay?"You just nodThe voice leaves againOn your ownAlways aloneJust left there to die?You can't explain-But they won't listenNo one's willing to tryThey act it outBut you see through themLike plastic on a toyYou're going
One Smile A cry echoed from the other room, and quickly I took a few steps backwards to peek around the corner, only to see the little boy smiling and shaking his toy around happily. I watched him for a few more seconds when suddenly something rammed into my legs and I laughed as the boy wrapped his arms tightly around them and, his voice muffled from his face buried in my leg, he said to me, "Please come dance!" I laughed softly and with him still attached, waddled back into the middle of the room, where he mumbled, "I love you!" Before releasing me to scramble and turn the music on. As the song came on he burst out laughing and spun around in circles, waving his arms around wildly before stopping in front of me, staring at me with big blue eyes. Sighing I allowed him to grab my hands and we spun in a circle for a little bit before he let go and I stopped, but when he looked back at me a smirked and spun around quickly, almost hitting the wall
I didn't Invite this WallSittingWishingThinkingPrayingNothing said can make a differenceThis wall has appeared againAnd I can feel it settlingIt is separatingMeFrom the rest of the worldI don't want it thereBut the knowledge of how to tear it downEscapes meIt terrifyingBut I try to ignore itTry and walk around,Try shout over,And climb upBut to no prevailThe efforts are uselessIt just grows longer,Taller,Wider,With every attemptI don't want it thereI want to talk to youI want to know your listeningAnd not pay attention to my brainYou know this feeling, tooEveryone has felt itBut few have heard the voiceI always try and killNo matter what it says,I tell myself the oppositeBut sometimes it is strongerAnd in the silenceIt overwhelms me,Taking over,Piece by pieceWithout a fight it has wonAnd I remainAloneAfraidAnd feeling friendless